i have a shit list like 4 names long and that is unusual for me, im normally pretty chill but theres these 4 people i just cant stand.
especially karen though how is she gonna see me and have the fucking balls to just ask me where brandon is like you ask him your fucking self you have his number did you have to remind me of how everybody likes him better than me and then i have trouble defining my own self-worth because i feel unwanted and that kind of thinking gets backed up by the fact that none of my friends including fucking brandon ever take the time to see if im okay or anything they just kind of dont bother or maybe its something i did or said and im too socially impaired to realize how fucking annoying i am but that also doesnt help me much so i suppose i will just keep taking pills and making appointments and staying up at night doing nothing but desperately trying to get my shit together like it was when i was fourteen before i became too self-aware and before my lungs turned black and before i got into this fucking website but most importantly before i knew what love was
my former girlfriend fessed up to “stalking” my twitter cause she wanted to know what was going on in my life and in my head i was like
damn do you even know the first thing about me if you wanted dirt on me you shoulda checked my blog. and then i said to myself:
oh shit please dont to look at my blog i cannot have you knowing shit about me